RocketJim's

Where's the Oven?
Strange days. It's only the second day of the new week but I feel as if I had been on a major rollercoaster ride. The past month has in fact been one hell of a emotional rollercoaster ride but I don't know if I want it to stop. I think it shall continue for awhile yet and I pray it should only get better. It's not often one gets to learn so much in such a short time. It is perhaps finally my turn to grow up.

I also feel that something is wrong. I can't exactly pinpoint it but it seems as if I am trying to bake a cake; every little thing and ingredient I need is present... except the oven. Strange isn't it? Something is missing and although I don't know what it is exactly now, I do know I shall have to be the one to find it.

I know it is also a time to be frank. I have many ideas in my head and also many things to say to various people but for friendship's/diplomacy's sake, I can't bear to. To some people, it will only get more awkward; for some, it will be better opportunities for me. For some...well I just want to scold them for the hell of it. oooo lovely lovely!! *laughs* I have never been so confused in my life, at least emotionally. Sometimes one waits and pines very much for something but it just refuses to come. However when you least expect it, it bombards you from every corner. How's that? So I guess if you believe there IS a GOD somewhere, HE/SHE must possess a sense of humour. No, I ain't complaining but I wish I can be less clueless. Still, I have to say a big thank you to my buddy, Shannon. She knows what to say at exactly what time. She possesses these nuggets of wisdom and I can't wait till I learn most of them. We are of the same age and although she is only 2 weeks older, she is way more wise. I can't help feeling that my inner child needs to grow...and by leaps and bounds! But I do love my inner child and I am determined to keep it. (Bah! to all of you who disagrees. Ha!)

In just 2 days, I made 4 new friends! Out of the 4, 3 can be explained by only 1 fellow. The other one scares me because he is moving a little fast for my liking. I was approached by him on Monday and although his motive seems pretty clear, we shall remain as friends... yet. If he scares me again, he can't blame me for running away. Shannon says I shouldn't be blind but I am stubborn. Anyway I just need time. *laughs* To recap the incident, I think I was too nice! I actually fell for the world's oldest cliche: the You look familiar, would you happen to know me? maneuveur. There is hope yet eh? Gullible girls still exist.

I saw 2 cockroaches mating today. ACK. Why do I always see such weird stuff? When I was travelling in England, I saw 2 cows mating. In school, 2 lizards mating. --___-- What next?

I hate cockroaches. I sprayed them dead. Funny thing was, one struggled near to the other one before overturning to its imminent death. Suddenly I felt guilty.